Going Home

My mind craves a stability

That hasn’t quite been established

Into this reality.

My soul wants some recognition

That no human can bear to

Take upon the task.

I need some help to get a hold on my life,

Because I can’t go at this alone.

I want to spend time with the all-knowing You.

I want to be reminded of the time I first heard Your voice,

And the first time I felt Your love.

I was only a child, sitting softly in a church pew

When I realized You were who I wanted to dedicate my whole entire being to.

A day with You is better than

A million without,

But this day has still been daunting.

Oh, please come down to earth,

And comfort me as I rest my

Tired head, and rack my restless brain

For any possible answers to the question

That manages to escape my breath for every moment that passes by: why?

Why can’t I just lie here with You until my heart no longer beats and my eyes no longer see?

Please, hold me in Your loving grasp

And treat me like the child that I am.

Kiss my forehead and give me that

Unseen, only imaginable smile that I’ve

Been waiting a lifetime to see,

So that I may close my eyes and finally

Feel the love that I believe I was

Born to feel.

Listen to my hopes and dreams,

My brokenness and struggles.

Feel the heartbeat that you created from Your loving, sculpting hands.

And I long to be with You,

Because you see what is unseen.

You hear my pain, and get me more than I get myself.

I want to be with You.

Just love me like You do.